I am

I am confident
I work without doubt
I face issues headstrong
I dont beat around the bush
I am straightforward

I am understanding
I sympathise with others
I recognize the context that people come from

I am a survivor
I may be faced with hardships but I will overcome
I may be in pain but it is just temporary
I also hate for myself to go through pain
But……아직 살아있네

-BQs 06.17.16

Demon 06.14.16

Who am I in the inside
I feel tormented
Oh the anguish
Conflicted

Who am I in the inside
Always storming
Oh the unrest

Who am I in the inside
What type of person am I
Doubting self
Lost

Who am I in the inside
Have I changed
I feel like I have
Negatively different

Who am I in the inside
Hatred brews inside
Of myself and of the world
Dead

Who am I in the inside
Fake
Futile
Forgotten
Used
Victim
strong but yet weak

-BQs

Numbed 06.13.16

I want to cry
But the tears won’t flow
It hurts and I feel lost
It also feels surreal
Don’t want to accept it

I want to close my eyes
And drift off into the night
Take me or the pain away
I beg you
Help me end this pain

I want to run
but to where should I go
I want to go right
But I also want to go left
But also forward
But then back

I want to scream
But nothing’s coming out
Only silence
Everything’s stopped
Pains still here
Not gone

I want to fast forward
Forget all the pain
And memories
Run away
Escape
I beg you
Do me a favor
Take me away

-BQs

バカ (笨蛋)

僕は罪
に犯罪しただから
バ力になった

僕は神
に祈られなかった
バカになった

僕は神像
に祈ってしたから
バ力になった

-BQs  03.10.14

(笨蛋)

罪非常嚴重
我已經犯罪了所以
變成笨蛋了

罪非常嚴重
該給神的榮耀沒給
就變成笨蛋

罪非常嚴重
不該給的給了所以
就變成笨蛋

-BQs 03.10.14

New

New is amazing
It will never go back to
What it was before

New is Unblemished
Pure as a white snowy day
With hopeful futures

New is Uncertain
But you invest your faith in
Something else rather
Than amongst yourselves

New is certain
You never want to return
To the past old ways

-BQs
03.06.14

灰色
別人把我看成灰色
可是其實我是黑白
我臉有那麼灰嗎？

別人把我看成灰色
灰色可以有優點的
而也可以有缺點的

別人把我看成灰色
我把灰色看成一個
缺點因為大家都把
你看成你不不應該
在這裡或者不應該
穿哪種特別的方法
或者該做一種方法

別人把我看成灰色
我討厭被看成灰色
為什麼被看成灰色？
我有什麼不一樣嗎？
有那麼灰和奇怪嗎？
-BQs 02/22/13

Left

Left and right
I am told to do
Many things

Left and right
I am sick and tired
Of putting
Up with all these things

Left and right
I want to depart
But something
Is keeping me back

Left and right
I see no point in
Life at all
Goodbye, I have left
– BQs

Lights

My life is like lights
Has to be controlled
By other people
Turned on and off

My life is like lights
Sometimes I shine the
Brightest but other
Times I do not shine

My life is like lights
I help people and
I get hurt as well

My life is like lights
You shine for so long
That you feel like you
Are about to pop
Because of the heat
-BQs 02/07/13

Wind

I wish for the wind to wash
my worries and stress away
like dandelion in the air

I wish for the wind to wash
who i am away and let
me start anew like a
new page in a drawing book

i wish for the wind to wash
my identity away
so I am able to use
any identity i like

~BQs
10.13.11